(©Eva Neide - All rights reserved)
It's all twisted in my mind
Trying to find memories
Lost somewhere not to be found
Shame on me, shame on you
Shame on what we will never be: friends
This un-friendship will never end
But before you write your last note
Forgive me from my sin of wanting you
And for having left the back door open
I have jumped from your cliff
What else could I do?
No other way out,
No fire exit to escape through
All these pretty rose petals thrown at your path
Take away your essence
For the one walking behind your back
I cannot be your hummingbird
Because I cannot find your nectar
No, it is not there, no mater how hard I try
Why can't you fake it for me honey? Why?
This magical light that they all see
All that I've gotten is your shadows,
Masquerade of a mimic star
Is that coming from you or is it within me?
Too much disconnection for a short instant in love
I thought to have been there, feeling your heart
After the end we have promised a fresh start
But the candle is burning down
And I am its fire, going low
How come I cannot see?
This enchanting magic others receive from you?
But not me? because? I don't deserve?
While your dark moon passes me by, leaving its cold
I am freezing inside but boiling in my heart, I am about to explode
I sense you won't be anywhere near to see it, what I will become
Because you cannot see anyone else, none!
They all will come and kiss your hand on their knees
Except me! No I won't, I will be gone, i will be free
The glories of the world will be at your finger tips,
Don't worry a thing; it is all taken care of, by the galaxies
But who said it was written in the stars that you would find "the one"?
And would be happily ever after
When all been said and done?
I have no more strength to dream about our future
Nothing is new in this present of ours, and we know it, don't we?
I've been marked by your fatality
No one should approach you, too closely
Or they will burn on your stinking fire
The same way you attract you repulse
It's not a reverie, it's your reality
So it is time to say goodbye
Even though my heart bleeds, my eyes won't cry...anymore
I know you are here, but you did not come to call my name
I can see you shuffling your cards, but I already know your game
And in the end, I will get less than one night stand
You will have a party but I will be the last one to attend
All that I'll find best to do will be to hide
Behind the curtains of your homes
Without confidence to say you're mine
Because nothing that I said you can handle
So I leave now, while you are distracted
Blowing off your birthday candles
This is my gift to you…myself wrapped up into silence
Even though I am screaming inside…I have nothing to say.
Copyright©Eva Neide - All rights reserved
POEMS by Eva Neide
Copyright © 2014 Eva Neide
All Rights Reserved
Poems on this Blog:
* The Message
* The Blue Moon & The Red Sun
* Ballet in the clouds
* Ladybug wish
* Baby Love
* Malgre Les Etoiles
* Je t'aime, moi non plus
* Like a Breeze
* The Darker Side of Blue